yes, this will be full of spoilers for pretty much everything. i've warned you so don't read this if you don't want things spoiled for you!




















firstly: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!AXEL!!!! *sobs* my beautiful Axel! they killed him!! T.T WHY?!! HE DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING TO DESERVE SUCH A CRUEL FATE! all he did seriously was kidnap typical asian school girl aka Kairi. okay? not a offence punishable by death alright square?! i can understand if he was a truly bad guy, poetic justice and all but he wasn't! he wasn't even REAL. he was a freakin' nobody! and at that statement people are probably saying: "then why should it matter? he's only a nobody." but there's where you are wrong!! would you say the same thing to...a robber? "oh he was only a robber so he deserved it?" that's mean people! T.T same with Demyx, he was so cute! and roxas, all of them! every single person i like always gets killed! first it was Jowy from Suikoden 2, then Leila from fire emblem, then nichol then L and now Axel! the game companies are watching me i swear! they intentionally make characters they know i will like and then watch me suffer when they are killed! truthfully i am not all that upset about roxas cause he was already inside sora. but axel's gone FOREVER! T.T omg. the last thing he says is so sad! yet so very yaoi-ish. -_-' "I just wanted to see Roxas.I...the only one i ever liked was Roxas. he was the only one that made me feel like i had a heart. it's funny, you kinda make me feel the same way" he was talking to Sora and obviously Roxas is Sora's nobody so naturally Sora makes Axel feel the same way lol. T.T and it's so sad though!! i actually feel sorry for org. 13, all they wanted was to truly exist, to have hearts. *cries* and omg...people it's awful. riku TURNED INTO OLD ANSEM!!IT'S OBSCENE!!EWWWW HE'S OLD!!! ha ha, and sora cries lol.("OMG YOU'RE SO UGLY! I HATE YOU, NOW YOU'RE NOT HOT!") which of course only makes me see sense in the rikuxsora pairing. all sora talks about is riku in kh2. as soon as he's heard news on kairi he's like "screw her! i want riku man!" ha ha. roxas is such an evil bugger but i do feel badly for him. lol. i started thinking of fanfics i could write(kh2 of course) and yeah, i started thinking of Don't Fear the Reaper by Blue Oyster Cult(awesome song. have it as a ringtone for both the family cellphones lol) lol when i got to romeo and juliet are together in eternity for "some" reason i thought of roxas and axel lol. T.T omg. i just remembered...i think axel knew he was gonna die! WAH!!!T.T near the end of the tutorial Roxas says "fine, i'll see you in the next life" and then axel says "idiot. just because you have another life..." T.T WAH! poor axel! yeah, even though nobodies don't have hearts or even really exist i am a total axel x roxas shipper lol. i mean come on. just because they don't have hearts doesn't mean they can't like each other! besides, that's cute. even though Roxas is all like "WAH i hate you!" but shmeh. it's just cause he doesn't remember axel when he sees him at first. well that and he's dumb and doesn't remember he's a nobody. i wish i could make an amv of roxas and axel lol. but axel's not in the game enough and neither is roxas, but i'll write a fanfic instead. lol. yes. T.T i'm so sad. actually, no. i'm so used to being shocked to death that i can't even feel sad any longer! though, i was completely distraught when L died. i was depressed for AGES. it's stupid yes, he's only an anime character but still! people get upset when things happen on soap operas and as such i should be allowed to get sad when an anime character dies! lol. T.T oh poor nichol too. he was only trying to protect athrun..."my mother...my piano..." T.T i almost cried when i heard that. it's so sad! he just wanted to play the piano and protect his friends, he was innocent!! that's not fair! oh poor axel. i must draw him now!











spoilers have ended!

now for some pointless blabbering! T.T i did so badly on my music playing test today. i get so nervous even though i know literally everyone in my class. it's ridiculous! and mr walker said that rythmically and note wise it was fine but it was boring, there were no crescendos(which i did try to play) or accents(which i cannot play. i don't get how) or staccatos(which i DID play) i almost cried. yeah. i'm a loser. but i try so hard at music and then i go and mess up everything on playing tests! i'm tired...i want to sleep...i'm lonely. i want some good shows to come on ytv because i have nothing to watch but rescue mediums and most haunted and derek acorah's ghost towns on fridays. T.T *sighs* yes. perhaps listening to gravi music will make me feel better. ha ha, i'm laughing already though cause i just finished listening to love me by the hong kong knife. ^^ they yell alot and over sing lol. it's funny, i love them. OW! lol. and they sing so fast it's ridiculous kinda like shining collection by nittle grasper. lol. i can't keep up yet but hopefully i'll be able to soon. but first i gotta learn the Rage Beat cause that's fairly fast as well. ^^ ha ha. i can only keep up with chorus of shining collection. T.T anyway way i'm off. new club!